A Funny Old Day

Maybe it's just me not feeling quite right or possibly I'm slightly over-emotional today but it has felt quite strange, my usual routine got slightly altered and hubby worked at home which makes a change too. To be honest though I'm just feeling a bit blue, low and run down, missing the kids and thinking about loved ones lost or living in other countries.

My youngest sister would have been 29 today, but was taken away from us 10 years and 3 days ago by cancer. I still miss her dreadfully and always will. She was an absolute darling and I don't know of one single person that ever had anything bad to say about her. I also learned a couple of days ago that a relative who spent 27 years of his adult life caring for his mother, never married and has always been so unselfish has 3 months to live. Why do bad things happen to good people?

Serenity

Is there a master plan for all of us that dictates when our lives will end? I'm not sure, but then again neither am I a believer in heaven and hell and being truthful I'm not so sure about religion at all. I was brought up in a catholic family, through catholic schools etc but still am not totally convinced what I was taught was right, but I can't say for definite that it's not wrong. I'm happy for others to have their beliefs and know some people who get a sense of calmness or something from what they believe - there's nothing wrong with that, if it helps them then why not? Life would certainly be dull if we were all the same and shared everything.

Writing things down in this blog has a calming effect on me, it helps me put life into perspective, and although sometimes I rant, moan or go off on a tangent it's kinda like a religion for me. Now that my I've said what I was feeling I can get on with more day to day things.

In the kitchen today I've made cucumber chutney, but held off from tasting it until it's had a few weeks to mature in the jars. And inspired by Sue from Our New Life In The Country I made the most amazing slow roasted aubergine, pepper, tomato, garlic, herby mustard sauce to go with the other things rapidly filling the winter stockpile. I even managed to sly some of our ever present cucumbers into the dish and you can't taste them at all. Thanks Sue, it really was a very nice and easy way to make a wonderful sauce.

Well my day is almost over and tomorrow I shall wake up feeling different again, in a good way. Negativity doesn't hang around for long when you have a good life.